I decided that enough was enough and got help.  I started in therapy with my son 4 months ago.  His grades had dropped and I could feel his depression like a thick cloud.  I knew if I didn’t do something he could end up hurting himself.  We found a wonderful counselor. We started going every week.  After about 2 months, she suggested I get my own counselor, which I did.  In turn she suggested that I start attending al-anon meetings, which I have.

Its been 3 weeks, and things are better and things are worse. My husbands drinking is gotten more destructive and sever. He is sloppy drunk nearly every night. He is hiding his drinking, so he waits till we are in bed, of course, he is then roaring drunk in the middle of the night. He climbs into bed and passes out in my kids beds, who in turn wake up and come to my room, then eventually he wakes up and comes to bed, and wakes the kids up again. This has become a cycle at least 2 times a week. Last night he was nuts.  He was screaming and yelling about things that didn’t even make sense. Last night he woke the whole house up. My 12 year old was having a sleep over, so it was very embarrassing for myself and my son. I haven’t slept all week because of my husband. I am exhausted and at my wits end.

In al-anon, I am learning about setting bounderies.  I have had enough, so I told my husband get help or get out.  I am giving him 5 days to have a recovery plan in place or he is out.  Lets see what happens…