Well, once again the hubby is drunk.  It has been a downward spiral for the last year and a half.  He has always been a drinker, but not a drunk until then.  Now he is out of control.  He’s not a mean drunk, hes actually kinda funny.  But its gotten really old and dangerous.  I don’t trust him with our kids.  He is toasted all the time.  I’m actually surprised hes held down his job.  I guess he is what is called a functioning drunk. He works, but then comes home and gets drunk.  It use to be a drink or two to take the edge off, now its alot.  I don’t even know how much because he hides it from me.  He denies he is even drinking and is too drunk and stupid to know that we all know how drunk he is.  Then when he wakes up in the morning he is a total jerk to me and the kids.  In addtition he has started to get reckless.  He has driven the kids in the car twice now when hes been drinking.  I can’t allow him to get visitation when he is in this state.  I don’t want the kids to lose their father, but he is not a father at this point.  I’ve asked him to get help, but he won’t.  He won’t even admit he has a problem.  I am suppose to leave tomorrow. Of course that got blow apart by my mother.  SO now I am trying to form another plan to move out of state with the kids.  Its tough with no money, no job and no help.  I want to go – no I need to go, but how???  I wish I had some help!