Well, I’ve decided to go, even with all the hurdles. For once in my life I need to finish what I’ve started. So I’m going across country to try to start a new life. I am suppose to leave in 2 days and have so much to do on my list. Today I literally thought I might have a heart attack from the stress and pressure. I just know that one day I will look back on this and think how awesome it was that I pushed through all this pain and got to this great spot. Its just hard seeing that light in the tunnel when its pitch black. I don’t have anyone to talk to. Thank God for my friend Shelia, she is about a year into her divorce experiment/experience, so she is starting to feel better, as if there is an end. She is the one who can understand what I am going through. I think I might seek out some support groups when I arrive to my new destination.